"We're not talking conscious decision, here?" Blackwell kneaded what was left of his right ear. "No," Laney said, "I don't know what I thought I was doing." "You were trying to save her. The girl." "It felt like something snappped. A rubber band. It felt like gravity." "That's what it feels like," Blackwell said, "when you decide." -- William Gibson, "Idoru"